Saturday, September 26, 2009

Well its been a great day, Noah woke me up early and we did the Saturday morning ritual of chilling while watching cartoons. We went out to my brother's and he made me the best dinner of roast beef slow cooked in a smoker, and Shannon made me a chocolate cake, yummy! Noah loves Jeff and Shannons house, he tried sneaking some of Paytons video games out the door by stuffing them down his pants, but other than that we had fun. Shannon and Jeff gave me a little gift bag for my birthday and I packed it in Noahs back pack before we left, we got home and I hung the back pack on the door handle. I sit down to the computer to blog and here comes Noah with a pillow that he puts behind my back along with the gift from the back pack and saying Happy Birthday:) I thanked and kissed him for it , it made him happy to think it was a gift from him. Good night



September 26

I saved the birth of Noah's story for this day, as it was my birthday 41 years ago, and like Noah, I just keep rocking everybodies world, wink wink! Happy Birthday to me.

Noah has arrived

Well I left you hanging with the last blog, so this will top it off. August 2,2000, its time to go have my baby, yes! I hate labor stories so I won't even begin, Noah arrived before the doc could get there, it took all day, but there he was. DaNelle was there with her friend Patty, and a backpack full of wine coolers, we laughed so hard when those cool drugs kicked in about the bottles giggling and we were going to get caught. I think my kids were there for a while , we recorded the whole thing with up until out came Noah, all you here is Devan in a very cute , excited ,and innocent voice saying, "mom, he looks Chinese", then the tape stopped. They rushed the baby out of the room and wouldn't let me see him. Devan was 12 at the time and he was the one that went out to the nurses and said, let my mom see the baby! I new the minute Noah came out he had downs, I could tell by his eyes, I wouldn't have known what to look for but I had just read the chapter on downs in my pregnancy book out of boredom. God worked that one out pretty good:) I lay in the hospital in some what of a shocked state, a normal delivery allows you to go right home, but they kept me as I was dazed. I think they worried that I wouldn't bond with my baby, the baby I named Noah. He was a sweet, sweet, baby. They were worried he wouldn't nurse as he had severely low muscle tone, nope, not the case, he nursed just fine. I had absolutely no problem bonding either, my super mother powers kicked in. One of my first visitors was my paster, I had told him what i named the baby and he said Noah, the bible meaning~ deliverer~ that says it all. Noah delivered my from a very painful past and some demons that I carried with me my whole life. My lack of patience, lack of judgement, the list goes on. The second person who visited me was Diane Fanning, remember Brian had passed away a couple of months earlier, I had never met her, but I could tell it was a very healing moment for her. Diane continued to babysit Noah. God does amazing things with the hardest of situations, he is the best healer.The week to follow was a whirl wind, 5 days out of the womb and a million tests after. This time was very scary, we had hearing to see if he was deaf, genetic tests, but the big test was to see if his heart was ok. I sat in that room with my mom, my mom being a nurse had the insight of the real danger Noah could be in, but everything checked out fine, the heart specialist told us we would keep an eye on him and my mom started to cry, that is when i new it could have been really bad. Noah continued to have pulmonary hypertension and we used oxygen and a sleep apnea monitor on him, but that cleared up at age 2. He has a small leak in a valve that we continue to watch, it has been there the whole time but hasn't gotten any bigger. All in all I was very lucky that he didn't have any of the major problems that babies with downs have, very thankful for that. That's it, I will be done with his birth , I didn't have any post part um depression , lack of bonding or anything, Noah rocked my world the day he was born and I am madly in love with him.

Friday, September 25, 2009

I am not sure where to start, 9 years ago on August the 2nd,2000, or now? I think I will give you a little glimpse of the past a little at a time, this will leave me room to compel you with our daily events, kind of like a reality t.v. show. That was the first glimpse of history, the day Noah was born , August 2, 2000. Remember, this was when half of Montana was on fire, it was so hot and if you had any sort of allergy, you were just feeling yucky and sick. I didn't feel so good that day either, I think I had been on my back for 2 weeks prior , as Noah was sitting on my degenerating discs in my back , ouch! This was also 2 weeks of endless phone calls to my family as I was so bored, I called my gramma Bondy alot during this time as this was when she fell going down the stairs and ended up in the nursing home in Big Timber, I would call her and she would calm me down, I think she got to go home one more time, before she fell again and they had to put here in the nursing home in Glasgow. I think I called my mom a million times wondering what I could do to make me go into labor. I had a pregnancy book that I read a few times, however there was a section in there that I skipped over, the part in the book that was geared toward Down Syndrome babies, I didn't figure I needed it as the test that I took to tell if the baby was downs was in the normal range, so why bother. But being on your back for 2 weeks bored out of your mind will make you read whatever is in sight, so I read the down syndrome chapter just because. I wasn't familiar with downs , but in the spring before Noah was born I read an article in the Havre Daily about a young man that had passed away to a well known family in Havre, Brian Fanning, he died very young and he had downs syndrome, I remember feeling so sad for the family . After that I had some really bizarre dreams, I had one when I was about 7 or 8 months along, it was of Noah biological gramma playing ball with this boy. I couldn't see the boys face, but he was blonde, she would throw the ball slowly as it was very visible that the boy was really concentrating and had a hard time catching the ball. This boy was slower, now that I am writing this I can still picture the dream, he was just about the size Noah is now, I just couldn't see his face. I really believe God was trying to prepare me, I had no idea my baby had any problems, this was the best pregnancy I have ever had, I actually looked and felt beautiful, and if you know me at all, I do not say that much. I was even suntanning in a 2 piece, my belly was tan. I even had a professional photo taken of me in a really pretty white gown with my belly exposed. I did not feel ugly, fat, and pregnant. I will not go into the pre- pregnancy stuff, lets just say it was an immaculate conception for the sake of , lets just not go there, that chapter is closed and forgiven. All in all it was all good. Well, that is enough for the very first night of blogging, ta ta for now

My first official blog, so here we go

I am not sure how to get this started , however, I will give it a try. It didn't take me long to get addicted to facebook, so I am sure the same goes for blogging. Blogging, who came up with this word? Do I blog everyday, or do I blog on weekends? Well here's to blogging, now I am going to post this and see what it looks like. I am assuming it will allow me to add photos. Good night fellow blog readers, hehe, I like saying blog.